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Candyce Maglio's blog ::Crossfading careers, pro musician, part time employee, live album, what comes next






Candyce Maglio's blog ::Crossfading careers, pro musician, part time employee, live album, what comes next












The               next               few               days               were               a               blur               of               self-pity               and               shock.

Also               embarrassment,               not               only               because               I'd               been               fired               (excuse               me,               "laid               off")               but               because               I'd               been               too               clueless               to               see               it               coming.

I               had               been               stupid               enough               to               think               I'd               actually               been               doing               sort               of               a               good               job.

Hadn't't               I               fixed               countless               chapters?

Wasn't't               I               the               one               everyone               went               to               with               their               grammar               questions?

Of               course,               looking               back,               it               was               all               too               clear:               the               scaling               down               of               my               workload               in               the               last               few               weeks;               the               closed               doors               whenever               I               walked               past               the               VP's               offices;               the               acceleration               of               Christy               Keller's               training.

Ah,               Christy               Keller.

No               wonder               she'd               been               so               nice               to               me!

She               was               probably               laughing               her               ass               off               behind               my               back,               knowing               she'd               be               pushing               me               out               all               along.

I               was               shocked               and               outraged               when               I               looked               up               from               the               couch               to               see               her               name               on               my               phone's               caller               ID.

How               dare               she               call               to               gloat               during               my               Oprah               marathon?

Wasn't't               there               anyone               else               at               the               office               who               could               tell               her               where               the               paper               clips               were?

And               then               back               to               me.

What,               exactly,               had               I               done               wrong?

No               matter               how               much               I               pressed               her,               on               the               phone               or               via               email,               Elaine               refused               to               tell               me.

I               didn't't               get               it.

Why               not               just               let               me               know               what               my               transgression               was?

I'd               never               had               a               complaint               about               the               quality               of               my               work.

Even               my               sarcastic               sense               of               humor               had               always               seemed               to               be               generally               well               regarded.

I               hadn't't               pissed               anyone               off,               not               that               I               knew               of,               anyway.

Maybe               it               was               that               time               I               forgot               to               make               a               fresh               pot               of               coffee?

I               had               a               vague               sense               that               I               was               being               ridiculous.

Oh,               well               -               time               to               watch               Judge               Judy.

Travis               had               been               wonderful,               knowing               instinctively               when               to               call,               when               to               text,               and               when               to               leave               me               the               hell               alone.

I               instantly               forgave               him               for               not               telling               me               when               he               found               out               I               was               getting               the               heave               ho               -               he'd               been               eavesdropping               on               the               big               bosses               and               would               surely               have               been               suspected               as               the               leak.

That               explained               his               nervousness               on               the               phone               with               me               that               day.

My               parents               had               been               their               usual               incredible               selves---in               between               my               choked               sobs               on               the               phone               my               mom               had               reminded               me               of               how               brilliant               I               was               and               my               father               had               insisted               on               sending               money               until               I               found               my               next               job.

I               was               too               defeated               to               refuse.

Even               my               8-year-old               nephew               Donnie               was               a               comfort,               explaining               to               me               that               the               average               American               changes               jobs               5-7               times,               so               I               still               had               about               6               more               to               go.

He               had               been               memorizing               statistics               since               he               was               5.

At               least               I               came               from               good               stock.

Yeah,               big               deal.

I               was               brilliant               and               unemployed.

Finally,               on               Tuesday               morning,               I               dragged               myself               into               the               shower               and               got               dressed.

It               was               2               days               before               Christmas               and               I               had               to               pick               up               a               gift               for               Donnie.

Luckily,               Marcy's               had               processed               my               return               and               deposited               the               $129.50-plus-tax               back               into               my               pathetic               checking               account.

I               grabbed               the               debit               card               from               my               wallet,               put               on               headphones               to               shield               me               from               the               onslaught               of               Christmas               music               certain               to               be               playing               at               the               mall,               blasted               Sheryl               Crow               on               my               Ipod,               and               left               my               apartment.

I               had               just               paid               for               the               magic               set               Donnie               wanted               and               was               heading               toward               the               mammoth               line               at               Free               Gift-wrap.

I               pictured               the               events               of               that               Friday               a               hundred               more               times               in               my               head               as               I               trudged               along.

I               saw               it               all               clearly.

What               I               didn't't               see,               unfortunately,               was               the               spilled               water               on               the               floor.

The               next               thing               I               knew,               I               was               waking               up               on               a               hard               little               bed,               in               a               room               with               SECURITY               written               backwards               on               the               other               side               of               a               glass               door.

"Steve               McQueen"               was               pounding               in               my               ears               and               my               left               ankle               was               killing               me.

I               looked               up.

Christy               Keller               was               standing               in               front               of               me.

I               stared               at               her               the               same               way               Donnie               stared               at               Mars               on               the               Discovery               Channel.

"I               called               Security               when               I               saw               you               fall.

Are               you               okay?"

I               kept               staring               at               her.

Then,               I               saw               something               on               her               face               I               hadn't't               seen               before:               lines               around               her               eyes.

"Uh...yeah,               I               guess..."

"Fine.

They               said               your               ankle               is               not               sprained,               but               it's               gonna               be               hard               for               you               to               walk               for               a               little               while.

I               live               across               the               street.

You're               coming               with               me."

She               saw               the               look               on               my               face.

"Samantha,               I've               been               trying               to               talk               to               you               for               days               now.

Now               shut               up               and               lean               on               my               shoulder.

Let's               go."               Her               apartment               was               nothing               like               I'd               expected:               small,               cozy               and               lined               with               books.

My               eyes               widened               as               they               set               on               a               particular               one:               a               yearbook               labeled               Dayton               High               School,               class               of               '94.

I               looked               up               from               the               love               seat               she'd               placed               me               on               and               studied               her               face               again.

There               it               was,               what               I'd               been               unable               to               put               my               finger               on               before:               exhaustion.

But               there               was               something               else               too,               something               in               the               deliberate               way               she               hung               up               my               coat               and               poured               tea:               determination.

A               kind               of               toughness               behind               the               beautiful               blue               eyes.
               Her               eyes               followed               mine               back               to               the               yearbook               on               the               shelf               and               she               broke               the               silence.

"There               are               a               few               things               you               should               know               about               me."
               "I               already               know               all               I               need               to               know               about               you."
               "I               don't               think               you               do,               Samantha."
               "What               the               hell               don't               I               know?

That               you               came               in               to               take               my               job?

Please,               Christy,               you               got               what               you               wanted,               what               more               is               there?"
               "Well,               for               one               thing               I               never               intended               to               take               your               job."
               I               said               nothing.
               "And               for               another               thing,               I               used               to               own               my               own               publishing               company.

I've               written               a               little               bit,               too."               Her               arm               extended               towards               the               nearest               stuffed               bookshelf.

And               there               I               saw               it:               "by               C.

Keller"               over               and               over               again               on               dozens               of               book               spines.

I               stared               up               at               her.
               "So               I               do               know               a               bit               about               this               business.

Oh,               and               by               the               way,               I'm               a               little               older               than               you               think."
               My               eyes               shifted               to               the               faded               yearbook               and               then               back               to               her               face.
               "I'm               34,               Samantha."
               "But               you..."
               "No,               YOU               assumed               that               I               was               a               kid               out               of               college.

I               didn't               see               the               point               of               trying               to               correct               you."
               "And               why               not?"
               "Because               it               was               obvious               you               didn't               like               me.

I               figured               the               less               interaction,               the               better."
               "That's               not..."
               "But               you               were               so               damned               knowledgeable,               I               actually               started               to               like               you,"               she               confessed               with               a               wry               smile.

"And               when               I               found               out               what               they               were               planning               to               do               to               you,               I               felt               really               guilty.

I               just               want               you               to               know               that               I               had               nothing               to               do               with               any               of               that.

I               needed               a               job               bad,               and               I               knew               when               I               accepted               this               position               that               they               were               underpaying               me.

One               day               I               overheard               a               couple               VPs               congratulating               themselves               on               the               bonuses               they               were               going               to               get               for               replacing               your               much-higher               salary               with               mine."
               She               eased               herself               into               the               upholstered               chair               opposite               me               and               continued.
               "But               what               could               I               do?

Even               if               I'd               quit,               they               were               still               going               to               eliminate               your               position.

I               remember               one               of               them               saying               to               the               other,               'You're               right               -               there's               no               way               Samantha's               going               to               take               a               pay               cut!

Well,               she's               one               of               the               best               in               the               business               -               she'll               find               another               job               soon.'               And               the               other               continued,               'I               don't               think               she's               happy               here               anyway.'"
               My               eyes               narrowed,               searching               for               answers               on               Christy's               forehead.
               "Why               would               they               say               I               wasn't               happy               here?"
               She               laughed.

"Come               on,               Samantha."               Her               laughter               subsiding,               she               studied               me.

"Are               you               saying               you               honestly               don't               know               where               that               perception               would               come               from?"
               "Gee,               you               seem               to               have               all               the               answers               -               why               don't               you               enlighten               me?"
               "Well...to               someone               who               doesn't               know               you,               you               come               off               as...somewhat...on               edge."
               Now               I               was               angry.

What               right               did               she               have               to...
               She               could               see               my               reaction.

"Hey,               you               asked               me!"
               "Listen,               Christy,               I               really               don't               appreciate               your               little               analysis.

I               don't               know               where               you               get               off               saying               that               I'm               on               edge,               but               let               me               tell               you               something.

You               need               to..."               All               of               a               sudden               I               looked               down               at               my               hands.

They               were               clenched.

The               knuckles               were               white.
               We               looked               at               each               other.

At               the               exact               same               moment,               we               both               started               cracking               up.
               We               laughed               and               laughed,               suddenly               bonded               by               this               shared               catharsis,               this               release               of               months               worth               of               tension.

We               laughed               like               two               girlfriends,               trying               to               compose               ourselves               repeatedly               only               to               dissolve               into               hysteria               again               and               again.

It               felt               at               once               bizarre               and               strangely               fitting.

We               laughed               until               we               were               exhausted.

Then,               I               noticed               something.
               "What's               that?"               I               pointed               at               the               red               gash               on               Christy's               neck               from               where               her               silk               scarf               had               loosened.
               She               took               a               deep               breath               and               responded.

"That's               a               Christmas               gift               from               my               stepfather."
               "I'm               not               talking               about               the               scarf."
               "Neither               am               I."
               "What               the               hell               are               you..."
               "Samantha,               when               I               said               there               was               a               lot               you               didn't               know               about               me,               I               wasn't               talking               about               what               brand               of               laundry               detergent               I               use."
               "But               I               don't               understand.

Are               you               telling               me               that               your               own               stepfather               DID               this               to               you?"
               She               smiled               the               saddest               smile               I'd               ever               seen.

"Oh,               Samantha,               this               was               the               least               of               it,               trust               me."
               And               before               I               could               open               my               mouth               to               ask               the               next               question,               I               knew               the               answer.
               Christy               went               on,               "My               family               is               not               exactly               what               you'd               find               on               a               Christmas               card."
               I               nodded               for               her               to               continue.
               "The               day               I               turned               12,               I               promised               myself               that               by               18,               I'd               be               out               of               that               house               for               good."
               "Why?"               I               closed               my               eyes.
               It               was               as               if               she               knew               I'd               already               figured               it               out.

"What               he               did               to               me               all               those               years               was               disgusting,               degrading,               and               terrifying               -               but               nothing               compared               to               what               my               mother               did."
               "What               did               she               do?"
               "She               stayed               with               him."
               Two               hours               later               Christy               and               I               sat               down               at               her               antique               wooden               dining               table               to               eat               the               dinner               we'd               just               cooked               together.

Once               I'd               heard               the               worst,               the               rest               had               come               pouring               out               of               her               -               I               sensed               it               had               been               a               long               time               since               she'd               confided               in               anyone.

I               now               understood               why               she               always               wore               those               scarves,               always               tied               just               so.

Rather               than               a               fashion               statement,               it               was               an               attempt               to               hide               the               scars               from               her               stepfather's               attempts               on               her               life               when               she'd               threatened               to               tell               about               the               sexual               abuse.

She               told               me               this               with               a               strange               abandon.

It               didn't               matter               any               more;               nothing               really               mattered               any               more.

She               told               me               of               the               years               it               had               taken               to               finally               get               up               the               courage               to               tell               her               mother,               and               she               told               me               of               her               mother's               shocking,               soul-crushing               response:               She'd               just               continued               washing               dishes               and               stared               straight               ahead.
               Over               ice               cream               and               the               best               coffee               I'd               had               in               years,               it               was               my               turn               to               speak.
               "Christy,               I               am               so               sorry               that               I               judged               you               like               that.

I'd               just               been               through               a               lot               of               stuff               before..."
               "I               can               understand               your               wanting               to               be               careful.

I've               worked               with               back-stabbers               too."
               "Yeah,               but               now               I               feel               so               stupid."
               "Why?

My               stuff               doesn't               negate               yours.

You've               got               every               right               to               feel               angry               and               protect               yourself.

Although               you               have               to               admit,               I               did               beat               you               in               the               Crappy               Life               department."               We               both               went               hysterical               laughing               again.
               "Christy,               I               can't               believe               what               you've               been               through               and               you're               still               standing.

And               here               I               am,               feeling               sorry               for               myself               'cause               I               didn't               get               a               promotion               or               two.

I               feel               so               shallow!"
               "Hey,               thanks               -               but               you'd               still               be               standing               too.

We               woman               writers               are               a               strong               lot."
               My               head               jerked               up.

"What               do               you               mean?"
               "I               don't               know               if               you               remember               this,               but               one               day               you               were               barreling               down               the               hall,               yelling               into               your               cell               phone,               and               we               bumped               into               each               other.

A               couple               hours               later               I               was               walking               back               that               same               way               and               found               an               old               notebook               on               the               floor.

I               swear,               I               initially               opened               it               only               to               find               a               name               inside               to               return               it               to,               but               then               I               saw               it               was               the               beginning               of               a               novel.

I               know               I               shouldn't               have               read               it               without               your               permission,               but               it               was               too               good               to               resist.

During               your               lunch               break,               I               put               the               book               back               on               your               desk.

Good               thing               I               did               find               it,               because               when               I               drew               your               name               for               the               office               Secret               Santa,               I               now               knew               what               to               get               you."
               I               was               shocked               yet               again.

"You               mean               that               beautiful               leather               journal               was               from               you               ?"
               She               smiled               at               me.

"I               knew               that               message               I               wrote               would               drive               you               crazy."
               I               remembered               the               gorgeous               writing               tablet               I'd               received               a               few               days               before.

Tucked               neatly               inside               had               been               a               small               card               emblazoned               with               the               message:               "You               are               a               great               writer.

Now               write!"
               "What's               the               matter?"               She               saw               my               eyes               start               to               tear               up.
               "Nothing.

Shut               up."               I               forced               a               quick               smile.
               "You               told               me               to               shut               up?!

Now               I               know               you               like               me!"
               And               out               of               absolutely               nowhere,               I               hugged               her.
               On               Christmas               Day,               I               excitedly               brought               Christy               to               my               parents'               house               in               Westchester.

My               mom               beamed               at               us,               glamorous               as               usual               in               a               black               cashmere               dress               and               tasteful               diamond               stud               earrings;               my               dad               was               loud               and               cuddly,               full               of               advice               and               corny               jokes;               my               sister               Anna               was               striking               with               her               gleaming               auburn               mane               brushed               to               perfection;               my               brother-in-law               Phil               was               warm               and               kind,               enveloping               us               in               an               unconditional,               sweatered               embrace;               and               then               their               son               Donnie               came               sauntering               into               the               room.

He               stopped               when               he               saw               me.
               "Aunt               Sammy,               are               you               aware               that               56               percent               of               Christmas               gifts               are               returned               Dec.

26?"
               "OK,               Mr.

Statistics,               then               I               guess               that               means               you               won't               be               wanting               yours."
               His               smile               lit               up               the               room.

"Now               that               I'm               taller               than               you,               I'd               advise               against               making               me               mad."
               "Oh,               so               you               think               you're               a               big               shot               now,               just               because               you're               a               PHD               in               Mathematics?"
               "No...I               know               I               am."               As               we               play               fought               like               we               did               every               year,               I               the               light               hit               Christy's               blond               hair,               now               pulled               back               in               a               chignon               with               wisps               falling               about               her               porcelain               face.

At               54,               her               looks               were               still               exquisite               as               ever.

I               pulled               her               into               the               fight,               and,               laughing               breathlessly,               made               my               escape.

I               stood               watching               my               nephew               and               best               friend               shrieking               with               laughter,               and               began               to               smell               the               "Christmas               Knishes"               that               were               a               staple               of               my               family's               annual               holiday               dinner.

My               sister               and               her               husband               held               each               other               close               in               the               kitchen,               while               my               parents               turned               on               Bing               Crosby's               "White               Christmas"               album.

As               I               watched               this               scene,               my               own               particular               Christmas               tableaux,               I               took               out               one               of               my               business               cards               and               looked               down               at               it.

In               crisp,               black               letters               it               read:
               CHRISSAM               PUBLISHING               
               IN               BUSINESS               20               YEARS
               I               smiled,               shook               my               head,               and               sat               down               to               dinner.


               
               
               
               
               
               
               
               





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